this was last week
this week i am eighteen and can now sing
when i w a s seventeen
[youth lagoon] said to me
don't stop imagining
the day that you do is the day that you die

1. pre-concert excitement featuring the blazing hot sun
2. unexpectedly bumped into charlie lim while waiting for vandetta's set. also please support local talent, fellow singaporeans - you don't know what you are missing out on
3. i may or may not have screamed when zann told me they came out of the media tent
4. s e l f i e with jake and logan who play alongside trevor powers/youth lagoon - please just let me add that this photo was initiated and taken by jake warnock himself
5. can we observe a moment of silence in remembrance that i took a selfie with daughter and she said 'nice, we're doing the selfie' prior to this photo
6. just really happy girls

also i can't wait to film tomorrow and i am going to have one heck of a time to make up for the worst birthday ever today which was basically spent trying to complete my homework. jc (2) is the biggest bane of my existence

Remember me, I'm the one that's back from over
Time's gone by and I'm still so far from over
You reappeared like you had never been gone
I lose composure
You're touching me like you have no desire for closure

Reconsider

Did you lie awake like I did
I stayed up till the stars didn't recognise me
So long
I waited so long
Now you don't see the skies that I do
My sun becomes your moon
For a familiar love
I am familiar love

Jamie xx on a loop– getting so nostalgic for 25 01 14

Step out into the Indian dust
I can feel the cracks in my spirit
They're starting to bust
Drive by your house
Nobody's home
I'm trying to tell myself that I'm better off alone

All my friends say I should move on
She's just another girl
Don't let her stick it to your heart so hard
And all my friends say it wasn't meant to be
And it's a great big world
She's just another girl

I went to see a fortuneteller, that was a trip
Maybe this confusion's got me losing my grip
I can't believe you're out there flying with someone else
Now Jason's getting married in the blink of an eye
I got an invitation but I didn't reply
Tell your little brother that we put down the gloves
And give him all of my love

All my friends say I should move on
She's just another girl
Don't let her stick it to your heart so hard
And all my friends say it wasn't meant to be
And it's a great big world
She's just another girl  

I could be reeling them in left and right
Something's got a hold on me, tonight
Well maybe all of my friends should confront
The fact that I don't want another girl

All of my friends say I should move on
All of my friends say
All of my friends say
All of my friends say
She's just another girl

Now why can't I sleep at night
And why don't the moon look right
It sailed off but the TV's on
And it's a great big world

She's just another girl,
Don't let her stick it to your heart so hard
She's just another girl
All my friends say she's just another girl
Another girl

don't let it stick to your heart so hard/ i can't/ how did it end up like this/ can't let this go even if it isn't 'right', you are worth all the wrong turns i'll have to make/ they don't know this but i don't know if i will ever recover from you/ why are you so right that it becomes wrong/ can we go back to then even if we were sad we were sad together how did you how did it how did we i can't. get. on.

 made a new mix

"you didn't break my heart that night
you broke my heart for every second that you weren't around"

i don't usually enjoy sharing my songs, but here's my heart

This is a song for anyone with a broken heart
This is a song for anyone who can't get out of bed
I'll do anything to be happy
Oh, 'cause blue skies are coming
But I know that it's hard

This is the last song that I write while still in love with you
This is the last song that I write while you're even on my mind
'cause it's time to leave those feelings behind

Oh, 'cause blue skies are coming
But I know that it's hard

I don't think that it's the end
But I know we can't keep going
I don't think that it's the end
But I know we can't keep going

But blue skies are coming
Oh yeah, blue skies are coming
Oh well, blue skies are coming
But I know that it's hard

everything began with this:



And my friend calls me up
She says, "How have you been?"
I say, "Dear I've been well
Yeah the money's come in
But I miss you like hell
I still hear you in this old piano"

She says, "Andy, I know
That we don't talk as much
But I still hear your ghost
In these old punk rock clubs
Come on, write me a song
Give me something to trust
Just promise you won't let it be
Just the keys that you touch"

...

"Give me something to believe in
A breath from the breathing
So write it down
I don't think that I'll close my eyes
'Cause lately I'm not dreaming
So what's the point in sleeping?
It's just that at night,
I've got nowhere to hide"

...

And my friend calls me up
With her heart heavy still
She says, "Andy, the doctors
Prescribed me the pills.
But I know I'm not crazy
I just lost my will.
So why am I, why am I
Taking them still?

& it drove me through hell with a smile

i know that i probably shouldn't be saying this but it hurts to listen to mayday parade alone because i miss that, and you, and you, and you

i cannot sound coherent now because if i do then you'll see my heart in its saddest, most deformed stage than it's ever been before

down one for all the hopes and cares
here's too for being unaware that you're gone because
before too long you'll be a memory

but at least i can now safely say that i'm not homesick for a moment that didn't exist, that i don't ache for the ones that were only ever created in my head.


please understand that i cannot leave
at least not for now
because you will forget and
i will forget too and
even the idea of it hurts me.
it feels like cold, sharp steel
drawn across my veins so that
blood rushes out of me through that escape
before i become weak with lifelessness
and pain


'someday we'll only live on within memories' — my primary school friends are always the best at putting feelings to language