there once was

seems incredibly surreal that all i am left with is a 1-hour chem mcq paper before i am completely done with a levels. it is hard to believe that two years have come and gone. i still vividly remember the stuffy b-block afternoon econs tutorials i could never stay awake in, the back-to-back econs-chem lectures i could also never stay awake in, the painfully silent lit lessons in j1, the sleepless sunday and tuesday nights spent rushing out lit essays, the 12am dinners because of math tuition... i could go on forever. there were too many times where all i could see was where else i could be, but in retrospection, these two years have been the best two years of my life yet. without the bitter the sweet wouldn't be as sweet anyway, as mayday parade perfectly puts it. so thank you, to the people that have entered my life/i have gotten much closer two in these two years, for making me the happiest i have ever been. i mean it says a lot anyone can even make me voluntarily go back to school almost every single even if there aren't lessons, and even after graduafreakingtion (e.g. i practically disappeared after prelims in secondary school because i zealously hated school). thank you for allowing me to walk through what felt like hell with a smile

on the flip side, i can feel an odd sense of emptiness beginning to creep in... perhaps there have simply been way too many times i have turned to a's as a temporal antidote and buffer for the things i don't want to confront.

:-(