there once was

last night we sat beside an outdoor bar on the roof top of suntec city, talking and stuff. your favourite kind of music came on and for the first part, you just stared at me. i turned around and watched the band instead because i couldn't watch you without wanting to cry or without wanting to hold you. i never knew such an ache could ever possibly exist. yet, i am glad you are still by my side. things are so much easier with you by my side; i do everything with so much more ease with you by my side – waiting, studying, resting even (you must know that restlessness has been the resident condition of my heart for the longest time now).